My Life

I have finally drafted 3 assignments, have to make refinement tmr. actually it's the most efficient that i can drafted 3 work in 3 weeks, including doing research, reading books, journals, and write
it's really a big challenge to me, but also a great learning to me!!
I found so rewarding to discuss, share or even just talk with my classmates and teachers. they are really great!! they are all so helpful and inspire me a lot! and I feel like an idiot! but it doesn't matter. just start to learn now! it's a new start to me, how to think, how to play musically, how to feel, how to listen........... so many things to learn ^.^
thanks God! though they are all good players, but atmosphere is fine, not very competitive, everyone is just doing their best for their own sake, but not to compare or compete with each other.
everyday is so exciting till now!! but really need more energy! I started to feel tired, and always sleep less! KEEP IT UP!

going crazy

I feel so frustrated now...........
and got feeling of failure each time rehearsing with others
having practised 7 hours a day in these two days, but no work done
nightmares every night, it's just a month, but really very tensed, both mentally and physically

my life in London

I have been practising for 3 weeks already, at least 4 hours a day, but why I played all shit today!!!
what's wrong with me? I really feel painful with my fingers, but still have to continue to practise
I have to believe "nothing is impossible", otherwise I can't survive here
stressful today, having my first piano lesson in the morning, my playing was so rough, then play chamber music with my fds, they are so great in playing, we have prepared for only one week, both the violinist and cellist played smoothly, but me? all shit.......... so embarrassed, rehearse next week again, need to put more effort on this
I don't know why I always feel hungry all the time, I have already had my meal regularly, with all kind of nutrients

New Life in London

having been here for more than 2 weeks, surprisingly, I really get used to the life here
very enjoyable though it's a bit stressful to practise so much

thanks God that everything is prepared for me already!!
and everything is going smooth now!